“We are all devastated,” says a young 25 -year -old Gazatí, a day after Israel resumed his bombing against the strip after a little less than two months of high the fire with Hamas. “You see it on people’s faces: pale, lifeless, stripped of any spirit,” he adds. Only in the early hours of Tuesday, of which at least 183 were children, according to the Gazatí Ministry of Health. “After we could breathe and say, finally ended, the pumps began again and with them fear, more intense than before.”
Ahmed says he doesn’t know whether to cry because he believed that war was over or why. “We are not only hungry for food,” he says referring to them; “But of life, security, of something that makes us feel that we can exist without fearing the next moment,”
continue Ahmed, people could “finally” breathe a little. “Even if life was difficult, even if our homes were destroyed and the markets were empty, we were trying to join the pieces and forget the terror that reigned between us for so long. But from one moment to another, it came back.”
For Malak Hussein, a young 24 -year -old Gazatí, the attacks are equally incomprehensible and disconcerting. He says, from Gaza City, that he does not understand anything that is happening around him. “What we feel now is indescribable. There are no words to tell what we have lived and what we are living now. I am dread that everything is repeated again,” says Malak.
Enter the second month of Alto El Fuego, the sacred month in which Muslims commemorate the first revelation of the Qur’an to the Prophet Mohamed, Malak had become accustomed to wake up with the call to prayer. The morning of Tuesday, however, he got up with the rumble of the bombs.
“We were sleeping, waiting for it to be the time of the Zahora [la comida que toman los musulmanes antes de que salga el sol durante el Ramadán] And instead of getting up with the sound of the call to prayer, we woke up the bombs, the smell of blood and destruction everywhere, ”he says.
He says he is not afraid of death in herself, but to the cruel ways in which she can reach: “”, he confesses and adds that he can no longer bear another loss of loved ones. “I am exhausted, I have no more energy.” The Gazatí Ministry of Health figure 49,547 the dead in Gaza since October 7, 2023, when the war in the strip began after Hamas attacks in Israeli territory, which killed 1,200 people and in which another 251 were kidnapped.
From the south of the strip, in Jan Yunis, AWS Albanna, a young 28 -year -old actor, only sends two audios through WhatsApp, who despite not containing a single word, speaks with depth about what is lived in the strip. There are 14 seconds where nothing more than the rumbles of the bombs are heard. In one of them two distant rumbles are heard, in the second, silence during the first four seconds and then an explosion that detonates near the refugee camp where it is.
Further north, from the Nuseirat refugee camp, in the central area of the Strip, Hosam Anwar, 26, he recounts: “We are in a very difficult situation. It is dreadfully bad. We feel like on the day of the trial.” “From one moment to another the door of our house exploded, all the windows broke,” he says.
“No one is prepared for this”
“You are never ready for the return of the war, of the bombs, of the massacre of children. No one is prepared for this, we can no longer bear it,” he continues.
It feels completely paralyzed, in shock. His mother, sick for months,. Tomorrow they will have to leave the house where they are because the owner no longer wants to rent them anymore, in addition to suffering some damage to the attacks.
“Do you have an idea of what it feels like to be confused between spending all your money to pay the rent of the house where you live or in food that does not satisfy your family’s hunger after this siege?” He asks, desperate. “I don’t know what to say, I hope this world will find peace one day,” he concludes.
His desire is the same as that of Ranin Alzeriei, another 23 -year -old girl whose house was destroyed on October 17, 2023 in a bombing. Since then he is in the refugee field of Deir al Balah, in the center of the strip. “I don’t understand what is happening or why it’s happening, but this must stop,” he emphasizes.
Ranin lost one of his friends in the early hours of Tuesday, in the “violent attack that launched the occupation again [Israel]”Against the strip.” I’m not fine, “he says, adds that he received the news that Israel launched an evacuation order for an area close to his current residence, and that he does not know what to do, because he has nowhere to go.
Sometimes the wound still hurts in his left leg that caused the bombardment of October 2023, a day of which he still has the smell of the smell of blood and the screams of the people around him. Resigned, exhausted and confused says: “I don’t want anything, I just want this genocide to end.”